RecoveryHannah Durbin

My Journey To Happiness

RecoveryHannah Durbin
My Journey To Happiness

The photo on the left was taken during the summer after my junior year of high school. Sadly, this was only the beginning of what turned out to be a life-threatening battle I would fight for the next 5 years of my life. Anorexia stole my life away from me - every memory and every moment was tainted by the demon living inside of my head. Each morning I woke up with the weight of the world on my shoulders. The mere act of opening my eyes to a new day seemed nearly impossible. The physical exhaustion, mental warfare and emotional breakdowns I dealt with on a daily basis were enough to send me off the deep end with no desire of ever re-discovering my true self. I surrendered to the illness and let it take over my mind, body and soul. I was a rag doll to the demon within me. It was not until I actively chose recovery during my lengthy hospitalization that I could begin to search for my strength, passion and desire to live. I had to make the conscious decision to fight this illness over and over again every single day. Every moment, every thought and every behavior was the result of a conscious decision to defeat this enemy that was living inside of me. It was my focus and number one priority. My life no longer belonged to anyone else - it was mine and I was going to fight like hell for it. And that's when I became a warrior. Those are the days that defined me. I grew and changed in a way that I never knew was within the realm of possibility. I found myself, and fell in love with the girl that I found. Today and everyday I appreciate this girl and love each and every part of her. I am so unbelievably proud of who I am because I worked my ass off to get here. This battle is far from over, but I promise to never ever give up the fight. Recovery is a life-long road that I must embrace, but it is a part of my life I would never trade. It has taught me the meaning of strength, acceptance and inner peace. It has showed me who I am, and why I deserve a place on this earth amongst all of the other beautiful people I have come to know, love and admire.

Recovery has shaped me into who I am today, and who I want to be for the rest of my life.